Dispatches from the Homefront

I have discovered that I am a person who needs more focus and motivation  to follow through on a project. Thinking back I realize this was clear to others around me. The Ex-Wife once gave me a bit of advice when going into a training program. she emphasized that I should "Focus". Okay, sure. I thought at the time it was her attempting a bit of humor because the training program was Photography oriented. But the more I think about it, the more I realize it was more about me trying to do a thousand things at the same time and starting a few and completing none.

Blogging is another issue for me
. It needs to be part of the routine. I find myself in a variation of a Catch-22 here. I believe Blogging should be more about real life events but sitting behind the keyboard is inherently unreal. I respect writers more than any creative artist, but not the one who writes to impress other writers. One who writes in order to impress others with their prose is a great thing to aspire to as long as your prose reflects something palpable.

I do not wake up every day thinking about what to Blog. I spend most days focused first on my search for a job. My second focus is on home. I've been unemployed now longer than any time in my life, which in the mind of the likes of Rand Paul makes me a lazy freeloader. Fuck him, little Lord Fauntleroy from Kentucky never had to worry about work because he never feared for his home. A fine New York Times economic write recently wrote about the fears among the employed.http://nyti.ms/K7IRjU Paul Krugman, you are so right. I had the fear when working. My fear had reason behind it. After all, I worked in a dying industry. Some say it is dead. Another victim of the digital age. Photographic Finishing. I've been doing it since I was in Grade School. Now I cannot find an opening neither far or near.